i am 18

I am 18. I know this may have come off late considering that I turned 18 Monday. But the numerous things we had to do in school prevented me from writing about my 18th birthday.

***Friday, November 11***

Just after my PE class, I made way to FIX Dapitan. I had long anticipated this one because I already looked stupid with that long hair meshed by that FIX Stick I bought the weekend before. After I got my haircut, I went to another parlor to have my hair dyed. Yes, for more than 10 years, I have had gray hair on my head it’s been a trademark. My dad stopped me from dying it before but now that I am 18, maybe it’s time to break rules once in a while. Hehe!!

I had my hair dyed black. I was so happy to see the result. It was something new and I love looking at it in the mirror.



bagong gupit. bagong kulay.

***Saturday, November 12***

I was scheduled to meet my friends this day. We all met at the Rajah Sulayman Park in Malate and went straight to Kalipay- a restaurant located at the baywalk. You see, the bay has played an important role in our high school lives. When we were still in hs, we considered the bay as our barkada’s rendezvous. The bay was a witness to our ups and downs; our triumphs and defeats; our joys and pains.

We had dinner. After that, my pocket was almost empty and my eyes already closed due to lack of sleep. My friends told me that it was still early. It was like 11 PM. So I told some of them to come with me to Starbucks. After having my peppermint frap, we decided to dance the night away since we were already in Malate.

We went to Club Calif. They danced and got drunk. I was in my usual behaved self. Promise!!

I met this really cute guy. But I knew right from the start that nothing’s gonna work out between the two of us.

We had fun. Dexter and Cathy, especially.



i soooooo missed this guys. barks, thanx for coming. thanx for the friendship. thanx for everything.

***Sunday, November 13***

I got home 4 AM and got surprised that lola was still awake. She told me she awoke 2:30 AM and got worried because I was still not home. She warned me that if I’d want to go out next time, I would have to ask permission from my dad already. Ooooh that’s gonna be extra tough. I am 18!! Well, almost!!

I went to the Santisimo Rosario Parish 7 PM to hear mass. I was very ecstatic when I saw that some of the lights in the lovers’ lane were already lit. They were, as always, magical. I listened carefully to the homily of the priest and learned a lot of things which I can relate to my life.

He met me after the mass. He accompanied me to SM San Lazaro. I was to buy my Bio book and Gonuts Donuts for the whole class. But the book I was looking for was not available in NBS and the donuts in GD were almost out of stuck.

We decided to go to Rob Ermita and buy there the GD for my classmates. He helped me carry them and almost walked me home. I do not know. I am just not that sure about him up until the moment I am writing these things.

I almost fell asleep while doing my Journ paper.

*** Monday, November 14***

It’s already 12 midnight and my sooooper good friend Emil was one of the first persons who had greeted me. My mom called me to greet me happy birthday. Inaway ko sya. Inaway ko sya dahil di parin sya umuuwi.

Right after I gave the phone to my brother, I cried. I cried because I am 18. I am 18. My mother has played a vital role in my life. And it’s just so sad that she’s turned out this way; that she still continues to mess up now that I am already 18 years old and that she, herself, is not getting any younger.

I cried and my brother saw me. He gave me something that made me happy, somehow. He handed me a new pair of Havaianas and greeted me happy birthday. That was one of the most touching things my brother has ever done for/to me considering that we are not that close anymore. I turned my phone off that night because I wanted to rest.

Daddy called. My lola woke me up. I talked to my dad. He greeted me Happy Birthday and asked me how things are going. I told him that I went out with my friends the other night and that I am giving donuts to everyone later. I miss my dad. I know how painful it is for him to be somewhere else while here we are celebrating the important parts of our lives.

After 5 hours of sleep, I prayed and thanked God that I am officially 18. It has been a rough ride. But I know that I am luckier compared to other people even if my life has rough edges here and there.

Aika helped me carry the boxes of GD to our classroom. Expectedly, they sang to me the birthday song. Hahaha!! Inexpect talaga. Just imagine what my reaction would have been like had they not greeted me!! Hehe!!

We enjoyed the GD before our Philo class. Alfredo had a piece of it, gave me a hug and greeted me Happy Birthday.



donuts for everyone!! hafei virthdei!!

Jacky treated me to KFC. I went home and ate some more for lunch. I took a nap.

We had a modest dinner.

Lola left for her ballroom session.

Mommy called and said she wants to see me. I told her she can just go here.

He called and said he wants to give me something. I asked him if he can go with me to NBS Recto to look for the VCD for our Philo class. Alas, NBS was already closed. He walked me home again and handed me his gifts- assorted chocolate bars. No Snickers. Haha!!

When I got home, mommy was already here. She immediately noticed that I had my hair dyed and told me that she was considering dyeing hers in the future.

I did not really talk to her the whole time she was here. She called us after she had gone. She told me that she was very proud of me dahil lumalaki akong mabait at responsable kahit na ganun yung nanay ko. I told her to just go home to Cavite and take care of her other children.

I spent the rest of the night watching Sisters Act 2.

I am 18 and it was a BLESSED birthday. It may have been obvious in my eyes that some things are missing but hey, I am lucky because I continue to live. And I remain to be the one, the only fabulous epal.

Go find your princes while I find my frog. God bless us all!!